It is Canada Day in the luckier part of the earth, and I am also in the mood of celebration. Although my soul just as honestly feasts the Canadian spirit, it is also into some kind of self-celebration. I have achieved some great things in the past few months that are worthy for recognition: 2 MA degrees, writing app. 200 pages in 5 weeks' time, worked my butt off in a call center, and stayed true to myself. I have come through so many things and I think it has served for my advantage.
Still, life can give you the greatest dissatisfaction in time when there are so many things to acknowledge. After the hardest times of my life came the deepest thoughts - questioning myself, my directions in life, my realtions with others, my values and qualities are currently being examined in my life. I do lot of walks at night (that is the only time of the day that is bearable this time of year) - like the hermit, I am wandering in the dark, searching for the ways out of my labirinth.
I think it is high time I stopped wandering and start to walk the walk instead. My lacking things made me feel that I need to evolve in so many ways. I need to have a better command of English and Hungarian, I need to deepen my knowledge in theology and the wisdom of life and I need to stay open and ready to be challenged in many ways.
So it's time to change, time to be wide awake.
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